Blog:I’ve been thinking about leaving. Here’s why.

Hey, Moisty here. Yes, the “incorrigible user”, the retired troll (well, maybe only just here), and one of Qualitipedia’s most disliked users. Me being those probably made you lose interest in this blog post, but please, hear me out. I have some points you may be interested in.

I have been thinking about leaving Qualitipedia. To some of you, that may make you happy. Or you may just not care. Or you could  possibly be sad about this, but I digress. I have had these thoughts for two main reasons. The main reason is the current state of Qualitipedia. We’re not doing good. Our public reception is terrible. Our traction is lowering. And our wiki ideas are fundamentally flawed. We can’t do much about these, that’s the thing. I have thought long and hard about why and what Qualitipedia needs to improve, but I can never think how. How we can change our public reception. How we can fix the wikis. How we can gain traction. How we can stop the toxicity. Ever since Raidarr took over, things have been getting better but we’re still far from what we ideally want. What I ideally want.

The second reason is the treatment I get here. Before I say this I just want to ask that you don’t bring up my past actions here (which were just generic trolling) unless you have a good point. I don’t want to see a bunch of comments saying, “You used to be a troll, so what can you expect?”. The thing is, I understand. I understand that I messed up. You understand. Everyone understands. But some of the hate I get is so silly and is just dead horse beating at its finest.

The one thing I can point out is the blatant double standards. Now, with my past, it’s understandable that things won’t be 100% fair for me. But some of the stuff I’ve gone through is just not fair. For example, I remember once a comment in an argument thread between me and another person, in which Yonydesk (roughly with censored parts to protect privacy) said this: “I’ve seen A subtly make fun of you and B, but it probably wasn’t without a reason at all”. Seriously? That obviously implies that I can’t be innocent. If I were to make of someone, regardless of the circumstance, I’d most definitely be shot down without question. (Edit: 07/6/22 1:16 AM EST: Although I consider this a valid point from my point of view, it was a misunderstanding. All perspectives need to be considered and that’s one crucial thing I forgot. Read Yonydesk’s comment. That makes what he said a lot more clear. Sorry Yony.)

Not only that, I’ve had two users flat out say they hate me. Again,  seriously? Is this really necessary? These are the same people who vow for positivity on Qualitipedia and then do this to me. This was at least a good 3 months since I refrained from trolling.

And it’s not even like I did terrible things here. I disturbed the workplace, and was an asshole, yes, but I don’t think I’ve done anything genuinely deplorable. I’m not trying to downsize my actions, but let’s get real here. We’ve all, at my age, trolled similar to how I did. Nobody hates you for that, and nobody should hate me for it either.

Yes, I understand that I was an asshole. Yes, I understand I wasted time. Yes, I understand it may be hard to forgive me. But that’s not what I asked/asking for. I just wanted fairness. Why is that so hard to ask for?

I don’t want enemies. I just want to use this place as every other normal person does. It’s not as serious as I may make it sound. I know. But this is how I feel. Please respect it. Please respect my feelings.

If I do leave, then best of luck to you all. Goodbye for now.

Moisty (talk) (CentralAuth) | Posted at 22:59:07, 5 July 2022 (UTC)